I lied about the lists

I know I said no more list updates, but I have maybe 5 minutes before my son realizes I am no longer washing my hands and starts hollering for me. So here goes.

  1. Last Thursday, my mom found out she tested positive for TB. She does not have TB; she has a related illness called MAC. Which is not contagious, and offers a far better prognosis (“cure” is possible, even), so hooray for MAC.
  2. Unfortunately, we didn’t find out it wasn’t TB until after we’d tested the kids and I had a chest x-ray. (I was to have a TB test yesterday, and R…at some point. We’d not worked that out yet.) Bonus, though: the kids don’t have TB, my lungs are healthy, and we had a reasonably fun family outing (after the needle portion, of course).
  3. Mom is out of the hospital. On oxygen, still, and taking a cocktail of three antibiotics for the next 12-18 months, but she’s better than she was. (So yeah, she was in rough shape before.)
  4. R’s grandmother is dying, so he is off this week visiting her (and other friends and family). Our anniversary (a big one — 10 years this Thursday) will come and go before he gets back, so we celebrated last night. Because of Mom’s current condition, it was a kid date, but at least we had a date, right?
  5. And there’s Kai. Let’s see how long I have before he starts shrieking like a velociraptor.
  6. When R gets back, he’ll work one last weekend at his old job, then immediately start his new one. And in the meantime, I will be doing a lot of work after the kids go to sleep.
  7. Bedtime’s about to get real.
  8. Yesterday Anya had her first art class. Like, with actual art supplies, not Crayola washables. I’m beyond impressed with it, and the teacher, and Anya’s response to the class. And this was just one session. Quite excited to see what she’s producing by the end of July.
  9. Took the kids on their first library outing today. Anya now has her own library card. (And I have two.) We have nine (NINE!) new books to read. Both kids are participating in the summer reading challenge. And they discovered that libraries have play areas, and even got to play with some kids their age. It was a lot of fun, today.
  10. We didn’t go to the local library today. That’s on tomorrow’s list.
  11. Anya played very nicely with the other children. As did Kai. This is a far more comfortable alternative to the park.
  12. Kai, I learned, can do puzzles now.
  13. This afternoon I received an email that I did not, in fact, get a job I really, really wanted. I didn’t realize that I had convinced myself I was a near-perfect fit until I was told they picked someone else. Now my ego is in tatters on the floor.
  14. I’m trying very hard to convince myself to trust the universe, but secretly I’m thinking the universe doesn’t particularly give a crap about me.
  15. Because she could tell something was up, I told Anya I didn’t get the job. I figured she would be reassured, because she was worried about who would watch her while R and I worked. Instead, she comforted me.
  16. Then she went to get the ring she gave me the other day and insisted I put it on. It’s a silicone ring that says “SUPER.” So I collected myself, put it on, and am now trying very hard to live up to what it says.
  17. Tonight Anya starts t-ball. Not Blast Ball, where they swing and run to one base — actual mock baseball. She’s so excited. Which makes me excited, even though it’s blazing hot out there.
  18. Today we also picked up some supplies for a super-cool Father’s Day project. But that’s all I can say about that, because Daddy reads this blog. ;)
  19. Since I’m going to have all this time on my hands now (and also because I need there to be a bedtime), I’m going to work on getting them into Wii Fit. I mean, obviously we will go to the park, the botanic gardens, etc, when it isn’t miserably hot. But it’s June. Wii Fit lets them chase puppies in our air-conditioned living room.
  20. And there’s Kai again. More later.

Friday funday, hopefully

I think I’m going to have to knock the blogging back to three times a week. Not because I don’t have enough to say — I have more to say than you ever see. No, it’s because I can’t seem to find the time to do the posts justice. And I’m getting a little tired of the list updates. I’d rather write a bit more of substance, even if that means I write less often.

I’ll have all kinds of time to write when the kids are older. But right now, I barely have time to do this list. So starting next week, I think I’m going to scale back to twice-weekly updates. If I find more time to write, well, there will just be bonus posts.

Goals

Daily meditation. I talked to Anya last night, and she’s agreed to meditate with me every day for the month of June. I’m hoping that once we’re done, she’ll be hooked on the practice and I won’t have to beg her to join me. She seemed genuinely peaceful after last night’s session — and after the day we had (more on that later), that’s a minor miracle.

Read all the things. I meant to get us library cards yesterday, but we were derailed. It’s on the list for next week.

Family fun. We had a great dinner out after our traumatic day, and went to the park afterwards. Anya then wanted to go for a walk. Good, cheap, (mostly) healthy fun. Fun does not have to cost $100. Fun does not have to be flashy. Even if I can’t work them in on a regularly scheduled basis, I’d like us to have more evenings like that.

Write. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about writing lately. Mentally writing my novel. Mapping out what I’d like to do with this blog. And I think I’ve hit up on how I want to proceed with both. But now I need to fine-tune my voice. I’m thinking of piecing together some short essays, either on this blog or on a writing-only blog. We’ll see how that pans out.

But for now, I need to get back to work. Because I want to have a little more fun this afternoon. We need some fun, after the week we’ve had.

Monday update on a Tuesday

List post because I have a lot going on: Anya is sick, Mom’s in the hospital again, and today’s agenda includes a full workload plus a job interview. And because I wanted to do this yesterday, but the copy/paste thing is annoying to attempt on my phone.

Loving:

Kai talking. “Mommy?” he will say. Followed by a bunch of gibberish that lately includes increasing numbers of actual words. My favorite part is when he just takes me by the hand and leads me where he wants to go.

Reading:

This very good article about how our kids teach us stuff about ourselves. I, too, have sensory processing issues. Until I had a daughter who also has them and started reading up on the topic, I assumed (as did everyone else) that I was just a gigantic pain in the…well, you know. Now that I see my own issues more clearly, it’s easier for me to take my daughter’s in stride.

The sibling rivalry will never not annoy me, though. There are eleven million toys in this house, child. Go play with a different one for five minutes.

Watching:

Trying to catch up on my CW shows. I have had precious little viewing time lately, so I’m way behind.

Listening to:

Today, the space heater. I’m Distractomom, so TV/music is out. The space heater keeps me warm and blocks out my baby’s sleepy whimpers, reducing my urge to go rescue him from naptime. He needs to nap; I need to work. We can snuggle later.

Working on:

Editing. A little web work. An editing test (cross your fingers for me!). Plus the usual snuggling babies and doing the mom thing. Nothing major this week. Chaos is on the horizon, so for now I’m not taking on any more than I have to.

Anticipating:

Anya starts art class and T-ball next week. She is so excited. And I can’t wait to see what she learns.

Making me happy:

Mimi is having a much better hospital stay this time around, and seems in good spirits. That’s a load off; I have been really worried about her. When she struggles to breathe, as she’s done more and more frequently, she reminds me of her father. It’s the only time she looks old to me. I’m not ready for her to be old. Not yet.

Hurriedly written with my thumbs before bedtime

I really meant to post before now, but today just didn’t go like that. It wasn’t an entirely bad day, just very busy.

Two things to note:

1. For 3-ingredient (4 if you count the cookies) ice cream, this stuff is pretty rad.

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Especially when eaten from tiny cones.

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2. Anya feels bad. Earache, intermittent fever…nothing horrible, but she is not 100%. She got weepy at bedtime and told me I wasn’t giving her enough attention, and that I should because she is sick. So we meditated, and cuddled, and read a story, and cuddled more. I apologized for not paying her enough attention, and told her that in the future, she could let me know when she needs a little extra TLC by using the code phrase “rainbow unicorn.” That appeased her; she is snoring peacefully next to me.

I have a full workload plus an important job interview tomorrow. This rainbow unicorn thing will almost certainly come back to bite me. Oh, well. What can ya do?

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Snuggle down, go to sleep, and hope tomorrow is better for everyone, that’s what.

Five posts in five days

Yeah, I’m kind of proud of that.

But also busy, and I promised my kids I’d take the afternoon off, so I thought I’d resurrect my Friday goal update post. Except my goals have shifted since I last wrote one of these, and I have a whole bunch of goals at the moment, so I can’t possibly write updates on each. Here’s the highlights.

Goals

Daily meditation. Though I have not started my meditation challenge, I’ve meditated every day this week. It’s helping. It also appears to be helping Anya. Still hoping I can turn this into our thing. 

Family game night. We’ve actually had a few of these. Kai has shown increasing interest in playing games. And then loses interest, because games are long and he is 2. But I am encouraged; perhaps he will be the push we need to game as a family.

Eating. Nobody is into it right now. I’m still in stressy not-eating mode. The rest of my household would rather snack. So I’m just trying to make sure we have healthy snacks for them. Meals will come later…but it may be fall.

Bedtime routine. I’m trying to steer us toward a better bedtime routine: Medicine, teeth, shower, story time, meditation, then TV. Because by the time we get to the meditation part, Anya’s falling asleep. (Kai is still napping erratically; we probably won’t get him into a regular bedtime til we fix that.) It’s a work in progress, but progress is being made.

Exercise 30 minutes per day. Not every day, but more this week than I have been. The weather’s been beautiful, though, so that’s been easy. June-August will likely be another story entirely.

Work with the kids on their letters/numbers/sounds. Anya got a wonderful report card yesterday! She went from only having mastered about half of what she was expected to know to knowing nearly all of it. This after having missed literally half the school year. I’m amazed at her resilience, and how quickly she’s learned.

She’s still struggling with speech, and her IEP report card wasn’t as wonderful as her pre-K one, but she’s doing a great job considering how many speech classes she missed. Practice is really helping. I’m also making sure some of the books we read are short and repetitive, so she becomes familiar with the look of the words, because that helps her figure out what sounds she’s missing.

Kai, too, is picking up what I’m putting down. We practice letters and numbers (which I’ve written on the shower wall in bath crayon, for visual reference), body parts (joints are hard, but he’s got the main pieces down), and I’m starting to throw some colors in there. The trick with both kids is short sessions every day. Neither of them have the patience for long lessons, but five minutes here and there makes a huge difference.

Blog regularly. Five posts in five days is serious improvement over my recent posting (non)schedule.

Putting one word in front of the other

What’s this? A Monday post? Surely not.

My wrist, aside from an angry, burn-like mark that neither I nor my doctor’s assistant can entirely explain, is pretty much back to normal. I still hurt a bit when I lift Kai, and I get twinges of pain when I work longer than 8 hours a day, but I’m doing way better than I was. So I thought I would try to resume my normal blogging schedule. Whatever that was.

Loving:

Kai’s talking more and more. He can identify some body parts; if you prompt him with “A…” he says “B, C!” and if you say “1…” he will respond with “2, 3!” (Most of the time.) He also says his name, which is the cutest thing ever.

Reading:

Anya’s summer “homework” includes the directive to read to her for 20 minutes every day. We haven’t made that so far, but we’re working on it.

Watching:

I’ve watched all of the Jane the Virgins Netflix has to offer, and only lack a few eps of iZombie, Supernatural, and Riverdale to catch up on my CW shows. Honestly, after spending that week in bed, I’m a little tired of television. And after spending the better part of two months in a splint, I’m itching to create. I just have to take it slow, lest I reinjure myself.

Listening to:

I’ve been trying to find some walking meditation music — I’m hoping to start walking again, at least for a few weeks. Haven’t come up with much yet.

Working on:

I have been doing a little virtual painting on my tablet, and writing snippets of things that might turn into other things. Is that vague enough for you?

Anticipating:

Anya is signed up for an art class this summer. Can’t wait to see what she creates.

Making me happy:

It would appear that everyone is mostly better. And with Anya’s school year wrapping up, I have hopes that this means we will stay better for a few months. Though I have probably jinxed us all by saying so.

Hopefully the last of the bullet lists posts

Posting a list not because I am still in a splint, but because I have a lot to say; otherwise this entry would turn into a novella.

  • I finally went to see the doctor about my wrist. He confirmed my suspicions (de Quervain’s), gave me a cortisone shot in my wrist (not as bad as I’d feared it would be), and I’m mostly back to normal now. I still have some residual pain, and still have no feeling in the back of my thumb, but I can function without a splint or pain meds.
  • Having said that, I’m not pushing myself, either. It may be a while before I resume working on my crocheted rope basket, and fine wire wrapping work is far off. I need these hands for lucrative tasks more than I need tactile creative outlets.
  • I’ve found a new creative outlet, anyway: Drawing, and sometimes painting, on my tablet. It’s got this great app that simulates the effect of several different drawing mediums, and I’m having loads of fun with it.
  • I had some blood tests that were pretty much inconclusive regarding my perimenopausal status. I could be PM. I could just be over 40. My hormones are decidedly out of whack, but it’s hard to say why just yet. The good news: My thyroid is fine.
  • We went on our first big trip with the kids and without my parents, attending the wedding of one of R’s friends. It went very well, for the most part; if I hadn’t been sick, it would have been a perfect trip. But we got to see the Nashville zoo, which is really gorgeous, and a little bit of downtown Nashville, which is gorgeous in a different way. There are a bunch of other things I want us to do in Nashville, but they are mostly indoor activities so I saved them for the familymoon.
  • Whatever the hell illness I had didn’t play around. When we got back from Nashville, I slept on the couch until bedtime. Then slept pretty much around the clock for the next two days. After which I spent the following two days in bed, napping and binge-watching Jane the Virgin with Kai. I’m feeling better now, but I lost 5 lbs in the process.
  • I’m now back down to what I weighed before I got pregnant with Anya. Which I was working towards, but I was looking to lose the weight a lot more slowly than I did.
  • All my underwear is now enormous. I went out yesterday and bought all new underwear. I’ve been looking forward to this moment for three years.
  • I need new bras, too; tomorrow I go bra shopping. And wedding shoe shopping. And pick up my birthday cake.
  • That’s right: Birthday #43 is this week! I was afraid we were all going to be too sick to do anything, but I think we can manage dinner and cake. Not sure what dinner is going to be, because I still can’t face pizza. But I ordered a Prozac cake from Muddy’s, so really, who cares about dinner?
  • As luck would have it, Anya’s field day at school is on my birthday. So I am taking the day off to go party with the little kids before I come home to party with the fam. Birthdays are more fun when you have kids — at least mine are.
  • I have not done much in the way of exercising due to the illness/splint/ongoing allergy issues. Soon it will be too hot to do outdoor exercise, so I’m thinking I will craft an indoor workout battle plan for June. Or maybe I’ll just give the ab challenge one more go. Either way, I need to clean my floor first.
  • The wedding is taking shape, in my head anyway. We have mostly sorted out the details, though we haven’t bought anything yet — I really need to clean this office before we buy any more stuff to store. The cardboard recycling pile is now taller than I am.
  • I finally got to have lunch with my friend Andrea, who has graciously agreed to be my grown-up bridesmaid. I don’t doubt that Anya can do everything, but I do feel the need to have another adult up there helping to wrangle the children. And with Mom still feeling rough, I’m not sure I can count on her to be well enough to do so in November.
  • After the wedding we attended in Nashville, Anya has informed me she wants to be the flower girl and the ring bearer in addition to her maid of honor duties. Kai, too, wants to be a flower boy. I had not planned on having anyone toss flowers, so now I have something else to consider in my plans.
  • Next steps: In addition to the aforementioned bra/shoe shopping and birthday partying, I need to apply for some jobs, edit a handful of articles, pay some bills, and other administrative/household things that have been languishing while I convalesced. I really need to get this recycling out of here. And then I suppose I need to be arranging a shopping date for my bridesmaids to get their dresses, booking the venue, and getting my dress cleaned and altered. Oh, and thinking about an anniversary date with R. our date nights keep getting postponed, but this is our tenth anniversary. We should at least get dinner and a movie.
  • So I’d best get going. More later…probably Friday.